Music has always been so important to me. It seems like no matter where I am in my life, there are songs that relate to it. I love the way hearing a song can take you back to the "place" in your life that made it relevant. Most of the time it is happy, sometimes bittersweet or sad.
I started this blog to help me organize my thoughts every day. To try to decide what I wanted or needed for this one day. And to make sure I expressed whatever I was thankful for. I have so much to be thankful for.
I've always been ambitious. That desire is what ultimately let me survive my childhood, break some family patterns, and excel. But the ghosts and shadows remain. Not as much.. but yes, they are still there. Old patterns, old hurts, and the way I managed to escape it all.. but do we ever really truly escape? I wonder.
Today, I am grateful for my job which lets me live my dream of having horses, and having them at home. I am grateful for my loving husband who does his best.. I know I'm not an easy person to live with. I am grateful for my girlfriends.. SO grateful for them, you have no idea.
Today I want to keep working on not being so hypercritical of myself. I will never love myself fully or be able to control my weight until I do. I want to stop hating myself for not being as perfect as I think I should be.
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